She was Betty Lou McCallum Wine.  Today, May 20, 2012, my mom would be 82 years old.  She loved homemade ice cream, books, Yosemite, baking, and fiber arts.  She was a painter, a gardener and a musician.  She loved all sorts of games and would sit on the floor and play marbles with my brothers and jacks with my sisters and me.  She taught us how to use a yoyo and a pogo stick, and made certain that we had it all:  badminton, tether ball, basketball hoop, croquet, etc.  Or maybe that was her way of getting us out of the house during those hot Riverside summers.

She was an accomplished pianist and occasionally treated us with her accordion.  I don’t remember her having a large repertoire, but I would be mesmerized watching her fingers on the ivory keys and working the squeezebox.  She would wipe off the blue marbled panel and keys and gently pack it back into its velvet-lined case.  Her music appreciation extended into the latest in stereo systems.  I don’t know any other women of my mother’s generation that relished sound technology, from the hifi, 8-track, cassettes and finally CDs.  She enjoyed a broad spectrum of music, from Mario Lanza, Pat Boone, Merle Haggard, Johnny Cash, Ella Fitzgerald and Charlie Pride, to name a few.  She introduced me to Michael Buble, and I introduced her to Luciano Pavarotti.   Every Christmas season was punctuated by a trip to the music store for the latest Manheim Steamroller CD, which was added to her holiday collection of about 70.

My Mom was an Extreme Couponer before it was trendy.  Always frugal, she would patiently cut coupons from the Sunday paper and her womens’ magazines, spread out the grocer ads on her kitchen table, and then plan her shopping by usually hitting three stores for the best products and prices.  This was in the day when housewives knew their grocers well, and my mom was on a first-name basis the checkers at Alpha Beta.

Mom made the best apple pie, banana bread, canned Bread and Butter pickles, strawberry and apricot jam.  She scoured the Penny Saver for people selling the fruit off their trees, and dragged us along to help pick.  We’d take the fruit home and sift through those with bruises and bugs that wouldn’t be worthy of the pot and begin the arduous task of peeling.  Fruit and sugar bubbled and boiled and filled the house with a sweetness that can never be duplicated with store-bought jelly.  My mom rarely used a thermometer, and would test the jelly with a spoon.  I would beg for a taste, and usually couldn’t wait for the hot syrup to cool and would burn my tongue.  When pronounced ready, the liquid would be carefully ladled into jars with a wide mouth funnel, careful not to spill onto the lip, because it would ruin the sterilized seal.  I can hear her “tsk, tsk, tsk” and sigh, and carefully wipe off the jar with a hot towel when the syrup spilled.  She worked very quickly and in a few hours we had a kitchen counter filled with sparkling jelly jars that looked like jewels.  Mom continued making jam after her children left home and supplied my own family.  When mom passed away last year, her pantry was filled with about 50 jars of jelly, some as old as ten years.  It was the last and most difficult cupboard to clean.

My mom was a complicated woman and for the first 40 years of my life our relationship was a typically intricate mother-daughter relationship.  Being the youngest of five AND a twin which meant sharing her, I rarely had one-on-one time with her.  And when my brother and I came along, I think she was at times too tired to parent.  I suppose everyone has some regrets about their childhood, but there came that flash of an epiphany when I stopped seeing her one-dimensionally, but as the tomboy who married for love, a woman with dreams, and a mother who did the best she could.

My mother was the keeper of my memories, my triumphs, my losses, the scrapbook for all my enthusiasms.  She validated and shamed, and now that she’s gone I am an orphan.   She passed away napping in her favorite chair, a pile of coupons and bowl of ice cream by her side.

Happy Birthday, Mom
With Much Love,
Cheryl